On February 5th, I took the big jump down the rabbit hole w/o looking back. My big chop was not the liberating experience as everyone says it would. I didn't have any emotional sense of clarity. As I looked down at the pile of hair that I just lopped off all I could think was ....ughh, it's just hair. I couldn't help but wonder, why didn't I experience that ahah moment that most women (at least on youtube) have? All I know is whatever is on the other end of that rabbit hole, will definitely be an interesting journey.